He looks more like a human now, with well developed of hands, feet, face and his body.
I am enjoying this every moments God gave to me. Miraculously. ;)
I am absolutely delighted seeing my baby yesterday at Columbia Asia. He is already 14 weeks by now.
He looks more like a human now, with well developed of hands, feet, face and his body.
I am enjoying this every moments God gave to me. Miraculously. ;)
He looks more like a human now, with well developed of hands, feet, face and his body.
I am enjoying this every moments God gave to me. Miraculously. ;)
Yesterday night, 14 May 2012, dad texted me. “Breaking news.
Toto has passed away.”
It was really heartbreaking to accept the fact. Few hours
ago, I was at home watching him. I knew he was sick, he couldn’t eat but we
thought it was just that he is sick and would probably be alright after taking
some medicine.
I tried talking to him. He still heard me, but he couldn’t do
anything to entertain me. I thought he was in bad mood. So I went home.
Just before I sleep, dad texted me that he is gone, forever.
I cried, my heart was effing pains. I couldn’t and wouldn’t want
to accept the fact that the loyal old dog who was with me for the past 6 years
has passed away. Dad decided to take him to the sea, and to give him the
freedom.
Dou Dou, thank you for guiding us in safe and sound all this
wonderful years. Your services and love shall not be forgotten but remember in
our hearts. We hope you will be able to find you own happiness, the place where
you totally belong to, and the freedom you yearn of all these years. Please
know that our home is always here for you as you are already part of us since the
day you stepped in. May you rest in peace, Dou Dou…
3 months ago in a seminar class I attended, one of my
colleague let the cat out of the bag by announcing her happy pregnancy. We were
very happy. I, was extremely touched somehow. I cried during the sharing. I
cried, because it’s happy news to share with. We were not close, but somehow,
the innate feelings inside burst. Maybe,
it’s something I wish to be one, but I still fear. Fear because I did not want
to grow into an older age so soon. Fear, because I still not know whom and
where to settle down. Fear, because I did not know where my starting point is.
Today, 3 months after, I am announcing – I am getting married in 3
months time, and in another few months, I am going to welcome a little new born
soon.
It’s just a very short period of 3 months, but many things have
changed. There were times when we were in dilemma and confusion, to go or not
to go on. But realised that it’s a gift from God, we slowly accept it.
Til date, I still not believe that I am going to be someone’s
wife and a mummy-to-be. Seeing him growing little by little inside me has been
a miracle one. It’s a miracle creation by the God. When I see him monthly, I almost cry because
he grows so much from month to month. The last time I saw him, he was already
kicking inside. It is dreams come true.
His arrival has made the relationship between my mother and
I even closer. I came slowly to understand how my mother carried me in her
stomach for 9 months, her anxious and happy feelings. But I was a little bit
luckier because I did not feel any nausea.
I guess this year is going to be a whole wonderful year for
me. I just can’t wait for his arrival.
Yesterday, I couldn’t sleep. That is the same feelings I had 4 years back when meeting target is a MUST and I couldn’t get over the stress of sales rejection. I thought I have grown up wiser, and knowing how to tackle and finding the balance points in life. So, I have had a sleepless night, while talking to Maxxi who accompanied me through the insomnia night..
Then I thought of one of my friend, out of sudden. He still lives in my heart, even though we have less communicate. He used to call me out, and we used to hang out together, talking craps while he loves to non-stop nag me for things I should not do. And never be forgotten that, he is also the Only friend that help me through the stormiest nights when my decade of good friends wont.
Have you ever have any friend who does not have any bad intention to you, but will use all his heart to treat you nicely, to help you with all he can? I am so grateful that I once had. He did. Thank you, MY. Thousands of thank you-s wouldn’t able to express this gratitude I had on you. He is also the one that will bring me Starbucks coffee when I just simply posted online on the same day itself. People see him as a free person, nothing better to do. But to me, every efforts count.
This morning, I came across a quote by Brian Tracy. “The sincere friends of this world are as ship lights in the stormiest of nights”. Then I add on to it, “The insincere friends? They lights off immediately while watching from the dark”.
Stormiest of nights – how does it sounds to you? J
Having said that, the boyfriend’s sister just highlighted to me yesterday that through a sales proposal, we can see who our friends really are. Those who are true, and those, who is wearing mask all this while.
Yesterday, I come back from work. Just before I entered the house, I hear my dogs sniffing at the back door. Well, he just knew it's me. Maxxi jumped happily and made baby sounds the moment I stepped in. He ran all over the house, jumping here and there.
Mum suddenly said yesterday, " My daughter is finally grown up.."
I felt touched, and instantly be grateful to the One who has improved me. The improvised me, I have improved to big step wiser and better in just a year. Thankful to Benny, my current employer. He has given us a lot of improvement classes to attend, and always been nagging and telling us about how important it is to be filial. He has non stop telling about how important and how sacrificial a MOTHER is to their children.
In the past, I have been taking things for granted. I'd always think that mum is ought to do this and that, because she is my mum. She is ought to fetch me here and there when I am young, she is ought to get me this and that, and she is ought to do all housechores while I just flank myself on the bed once I got home, do nothing.
I have forgotten that mum is also tired. Indeed, she is getting older, her body is getting weaker, yet she still has so much things to do. She did not asked me to help her, but only want me to lead a happy life. When I am sad, mum accompanied me silently. When I am sick, mum cook my favourite porridge and get medicine prepared on the table so that when I wake up, I will have it. Mum, always know the best of me.
Long holidays for Chinese New Year this year.
Today, is my first day of working again after the long holidays. Have not really been doing anything good except resting at home, sleeping late in the wee hours, shop and buy, spending times with my boyfriend and the dogs. :D
The Angpows for Maxxi & Toby this year.
And I took it to buy a small comfy house for both of them..;)
While I am expecting it to be an awesome day today, I received rather a bad news today. 2 of my colleagues resigned at one time yesterday. I got a shock of it, but try to calm down myself before anything because I have never expect it to be so soon. Yes, I have sensed it, but not during the CNY or after taking the bonus. I started to question and understand that, 99% of the people who works for people will do that too. Maybe, one day I will be the same although, I have never, never done it before. I know its not good, so I will not do it I just do not understand why people will do it that way. Seriously.
Anyway, we wish them Luck!
A Good News!
Last Sunday, I finally mustered up my courage to do something I have been fearing of pains, but I would like to challenge myself of bearing this pains – Yes, I have done a tattoo on my right leg near the ankle. And, it’s AWESOME! I would say, it’s bearable pain. I salute those peoples who love tattoo and has paint all over their bodies.
I am still thinking if I should get one on my shoulder.Muahahahahaha..
Happy working, lads!
- Pigaboo
- Selangor, Malaysia
- ..A darling mummy to 2 little boys, a perfectionist lover to a smelly temper boyfriend, and a princess-spoilt daughter trying hard to settle down..
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